Monday, October 30, 2006

Distracted

I am sitting at the library with my three kids playing with jigzaw pussels. I went here to get some peace in order to write a comment to Marvin back at Peterson Toscanos A Musing in his recent post where Marvin takes a stand in trans issues.

But I had no luck. Just when I took up my computer a tall, dark and very handsome man with two small children walked in. I looked at him for a while but then turned around to concentate. Then he sat down with his two gorgeous children and stared reading to them with a Irish accent and a dark and plain wonderful voice.

I have no chance to do anything else then just sit back and keep eavesdropping.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Part of speech



I just read todays news and fealt really anoyed by one article in the Swedish paper Svenska Dagbladet.. The article is about the Miss International Queen 2006 and in a few sentences they say that Mexican Erica Andrews is the new Miss International Queen.

What made me angry was the header. "Transsexuell världsmiss korad" is a wordgame that means both "transsexual miss world is crowned" and "transsexual mistake of global proportion is crowned". I got upset and e-mailed the editorial staff with my complain and within four minutes I got a apology and the header was changed to "Världens snyggaste transsexuella korad" that is without double meaning and means "The most beautiful transsexual in the world is crowned".

I was glad that they imidiate changed it so that sheep joke wasn't there but I'm a bit frustrated about the use of transsexual as a noun. I think transsexual schould be an adjective and not a noun. My problems are of a transsexual nature and I am doing my transition and sexchange in order to not have as few transsexual problems as possible in the future. I don't know if it's a common use of the word but I now that my doctors and a couple of friends see this the same way.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Amazon shopping spree


I read Transcending Gender about the book The Transgendered Reader and got interested. I met Stephen Whittle at last years Stockholm Pride where mr Wittle talked about transactivism.

I ordered the book from Amazon and when I did I just happen to order a few other books. Two other books about transissues:Transmen and FTM:s and Invisible Lives: The Erasure of Transsexual and Transgendered People. I can't wait for them to get here. I hope they will be deliverd to my mid winter break so I can read them during Christmas. I also got two books about homosexuality; What the Bible Really Says About Homosexuality and Greek Homosexuality: Updated and with a new Postscript. I t wasn't cheep but I feel richer alredy.

Friday, October 27, 2006

Transcomics and new hormones



I stumbled across Transe-Generation and got caught up for two hours. I just love it. It is so relieving to read other transdudes experiences.

Two days ago I got back on my hormones after a couple of looooong moths waiting for the right prescription. The Swedish transcare is slow but free. You can read more about our Swedish trans care on mr Toscanos: A Musing. I wrote my story and he published it in two peaces.

Well, I had to change my medication and this new one they inject in... well... my behind. I guess they thought that being a dick-less dude wasn't humiliating enough so they changed the injections you took by your self in your thigh to this other that a transignorant old hag injects while you have to bulge up your but. Farewell my dear integrity. I liked getting to know you...!

But of course it feels great to be back on track. I have gotten way to feminine to recognize myself.
This week I learned that my chest op. that I was promised to get done in September is delayed because of one of the surgeons has been on sick leave for few months and that I can’t get my chest done for a couple of months. I don’t know what to do. If I wait it will probably be done in March or April. If I pay for it myself I can get it done in a month. But is it worth 30000 SEK (just over $4000). What is it worth to get it done a couple of months earlier? Idunno

Done at last!


I've just been to Friday mass at the cathedral. It's one of my very few routines and I really will miss my cathedral when I move up north at new year. I'm sitting at the library behind a big glass wall and looking out at a rain storm. It's supposed to be the worst European windstorm for a couple of years and the authority's has told people in a large part of the country to stay inside if possible and more than 4% of all households in the whole country is without electricity. Here I am, sitting behind a thick glass wall looking out on the stormy weather. Autumn leaves are dancing in the wind, people outside is walking as fast as possible and I just sits right here.

I have worked so hard this week and now I'm actually finished. All of my papers are done and all of my midterm stress is over. Cant the weather tell that it is no use to hurry anymore?

Wow! Actually, when I just wrote that the sun came out. The rain is still pouring down and the wind is intense, but the sun came out and is lightening up all of the yellow maple leaves that are rumbling around in the air without any respect for gravity.

I feel very spiritual today. Tired, worn out, stressed out but happy and proud to have done a very good job this week. I'm blessed to be able to sit in here and not be a part of everyone running outside. I have the time and the peace to sit here and realize that maple leaves can be magical.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Six words to write whole stories


Found this link about short stories:
http://wired.com/wired/archive/14.11/sixwords.html

I can't stop writing these sentences.

I try to stop but fails.

Can't do my homework for starters.

Want to try short story too.


He found happiness. Reboot, I'm jealous.

Death got depressed, committed suicide. Reincarnated.

Fishes doesn't scream. I'm quiet too.

Time flies. Not away; ahead. Follow!

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

A blog is born!


trans Latin across, beyond, over, on the other side.

This is my first post on my brand new blog. I don't really know what to write just yet but here I am. My main purpose is to over come my fear of writing in English.

This week is intence. Midterm exams in three of my subjects; Philosophy, Swedish and History. In Philosophy I have two old pm:s I haven't finished yet. Right now I'm writing about Karl Popper and his critical rationalism. No one can make me as atheistic as Popper and at the same time, no one gets me as interested in God as Popper. It's very interesting. At the same time Im writing my midterm exam in philosophy. The exam is in the form of a paper on moral. I have to take a every day moral conflict in my life, preferible a small one, and write about it with as many philosophers view as possible. It is very fun and very exhausting. I do not like my moral!

I have to turn it in tomorrow morning at 10.30 am and have to take an injection at 10 am 2 miles away. If I even have my paper finised by then. Now it's 8 pm and I have two pages left.